Have you ever felt like you don’t want to get out of bed in the morning and you always feel tired no matter how much sleep you’ve had? Like you feel unmotivated, bored and perhaps depressed at work? If you are to ask me these questions, my answer would be yes.
I’ve been feeling overwhelmed lately and I feel like I have lost control over things at work. It’s sad to say that I have lost interest in the things that I used to find exciting. I have lost perspective on why I’m doing what I’m doing and I feel like I’m on a never-ending treadmill. Stress has been my companion in the past few weeks.
I’ve put more than two years in my chosen career. I worked hard and accomplished a lot. But something has inevitably changed. I don’t have the passion that I used to have and I no longer find fulfillment in my job. I was doing well and thought I was living the dream. But after few years of working so hard, it started to take a toll on me. It feels like I’ve lost my radiance and with it, the love. The thing that I love becomes a dreaded chore. And I know it can happen to anyone of us.
It’s hard to feel this way and I’m not proud to admit this tho. I’m in a place in the middle where my mind is battling whether I stay because of the colleagues who became my close friends now and the company is stable or leave to shift gears and follow the path that I’ve been dreaming of.
It brought me up some questions like, do I like this job but not the company I am working for? Is it perhaps the industry that I don’t like? Is it because my salary is less than what I deserve? (I think so lol) Why can’t I be happy that I have a job when so many had lost theirs? Should I take a break for a while?
All I want is to wake up excited about what I get to do. I want to make sure I am living my life to its fullest by loving what I do, and doing what I love. And I know that’s what everyone wants too.