Are you somewhere between your mid twenties or thirties and experiencing a serious low point in your life? Well, you’re not alone. I sometimes feel lost, anxious and panicked about my life. I’m consumed by questioning the direction of my career and overall life purpose. Yes, we might be experiencing quarter-life crisis.
There is so much pressure to know what I’m doing in life and where I’m going next. I miss the age when I thought I would have my things together by the time I was the age I am now. I’m in the stages of grief where I’m trying to figure out what life I want to live and I’m also trying to find some motivation.
I remember when I was younger, I promised myself that I would buy my parents their own house and lot and give them money to put up their own business. But until now I can’t give anything I promised. I never thought living away from them would be this hard. I never thought working abroad would be like this. But hey I have to work hard not only for myself.
I sometimes ask, “Why am I here? What is my purpose?”. I feel like each day of my life is just a routine. I’m going to work and going home straight after. I do go out with friends but not so often. And like what I said in my previous entry I feel like I’m on a never ending treadmill. Something exciting is what I want!
I have a good job I could say, but I’m not sure whether it’s giving me a sense of direction or not. I don’t know. I’m still figuring it out. For the meantime, life goes on.
So… yes, I’m turning thirty in a few months (what?!) and what’s coming into my mind is, by this time, I should be having a satisfying and fulfilling life. But I know the Lord is planning something beautiful for me. I just need to wait patiently. His plans will always be better than mine. 🙂
And there it is. These are my sentiments while I’m here, trying to squeeze my tiny self in at the women’s cabin on the train going home from work. This is actually one of my many struggles. (Yay)
If you’re reading this, thank you for your time. I hope you’re having a great day/night.